Quitting my job and starting over

If you would have told me five years ago that I was going to quit my job someday without a detailed plan, I would not believe you. First of all, I believed I was going to be one of those people who work at a company for 40 years and then retire. Second, I only take steps when I can pretty much determine the outcome, or in other words: I need a clear plan. But both these things didn’t happen and I eventually quit my job on the 31st of December 2020.

As I’ve made known by now, I’m one who likes stability and security. Don’t come at me with surprises, I just want to know what’s coming next. For some reason that type of lifestyle didn’t seem right anymore. Was I going to stay in a place where I didn’t feel like I could develop myself or achieve much more than I already had? Don’t get me wrong. The company I worked for was amazing and my colleagues were truly the best. However, the job in itself (you know that thing I was supposed to be doing 40 hours a week) just wasn’t it for me. And yet, when I discovered this about five years ago, I still stayed in the position. Why? Well, as I said, I liked the stability. I was getting paid well, was given many holidays, worked for a great company, but most importantly I feared what would happen if I quit and did something else.

Was I going to disappoint my parents by quitting? Would people look at me different if I didn’t work for this company anymore? Or worse, what would happen if I didn’t find anything that would be better for me? Many questions, many fears, and still stuck in the same place. But then, fortunately, work just started feeling like a real chore. I practically finished all my work and there was not much left to do. And I truly thank God for the discomfort I started feeling, because He knew that if I didn’t get that feeling, I would indeed stay for 35 more years.

So now here we are, six months since I quit my stable job. And guess what? I’m still alive, I’m fine and I feel better than I’ve felt the past couple of years. I can achieve again and figure out what I’m good at, what I want to do, and how to use my abilities the best way I can. I’ll be taking you along as I move in this intentional and purposeful journey.